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August of 2007. So, 3 years total we were together. We met here in Seattle, and then after one and a half years she decided to move out to a small town in Ohio where her mom lives to be near her mom. I went along like a p-whipped fool. We talked about moving back to Wa State, and she agreed. I proposed to her, she said yes, we sent out lots of invitations, almost 100, and had a medium sized wedding last Aug. in Ohio. I had trouble finding work in my field there (computers) and took minimum wage type jobs to pay the bills. She got a job in the insurance field. To make a long story short, she said that she wanted to stay there because of the slower pace of life, cheaper living costs, etc, and because she was getting promotions at work. I was laid off of my job and got depressed even more, began to drink more, I felt isolated there, as all my friends were in Wa State, where I grew up. Our marriage got worse, we argued, she threatened divorce several times, and then finallyher and her mom bought me a one way ticket back to Seattle and I flew back 10 days ago. I'm 34, and moved back in with my parents. I shipped all my belongings in boxes through the US Post Office mail. Anyway, she's going through with the divorce, it's called a no-contest divorce, because we didn't have any kids together, or property or anything. I'm allergic to cats, and to seal the deal, she just got a cat last week from the humane shelter there. I was so depressed when I got back to Seattle. The place has changed even in 2 years, way too over-populated and expensive. I begged for her to take me back, but she won't. My depression comes in big waves. Sometimes I'm suicidal, but I don't think I would kill myself over a girl. We were born one day apart, my birthday is July 25th, hers is July 26th, we are both Leo's, both firesigns, but I'm 4 years older. I have heard that 2 firesigns don't mix. Anyway, can someone give me positive words. I'm so depressed. I was with her forthe past 3 years, and it's like I'm numb now. I don't want to do anything, don't want to work, barely want to get out of bed. I'm pissed off all the time. I don't even look at other women or even have any kind of sex drive, it's like I'm numb. How can I snap out of this funk. I used to be a very happy kid growing up.

First of all, NEVER date a woman who is that obsessed with her mother. Cut her off. Do not communicate with her after the divorce is final and do it as little as possible now. Change your numbers, do not give them to her.You are back in an area where you can build things up again. Put your life back to gether, and don;t date mom hags.Its going to be hard to see anything as positive for a bit Keep sledding, and stick to people whoi share your priorities. Don't worry about all the astrology or numbers. Get yourself back to gether, and the rest will take care of itself.

You said that Washington State was where all your friends were. What happened to them? It sounds like you and your wife are not ready to have a marriage together. Yes, you are depressed. But now you are back where you can have a job in the computer field or, without a wife, you can start applying for jobs in the computer field and relocate when you find a good job. Your wife had her mom and wanted to live near her. She had a job that was giving her promotions. She had a less stressful life and she wanted it to stay that way. It looks like you forced the issue and then, once you did that, you lost. When you got laid off from your job, you started a downward spiral and you are still on that downward spiral. Did you have to start drinking when you became unemployed, for example? That's a real marriage and relationship-killer so your wife took notice and that probably make her decision to divorce a lot easier. Sure, you were fueled by dreams that everything would have turned out differently if you were just back in Seattle. And now it turns out that Seattle is not the greatest place either. You have to make it work now, at least so that you can get out of your parents' house and be on your own. The key is to be employed in your chosen field and be earning enough so that at the very least you can afford counseling for your depression. I wouldn't be surprised if your problem with alcohol wasn't the one thing that you don't want to think about but which will always cause you problems in your life. If you can learn that now and deal with that, you have a much better chance of happiness in the future. Counseling costs something but AA is free. I think the marriage is truly over and it sounds like you got a lot of lessons about what NOT to do when you are married - make location an issue when things are going well for your partner, medicate yourself with alcohol, let a job termination spell the end of your productive life, think your friends are always going to be somewhere else instead of where you are, blame your partner for making you suffer in a 'bad location', etc. Sorry this was such a disaster but I see good things in this too - the fact that you didn't have kids. That would have made this so much worse.

you are young you can find a nice woman your age again but id enjoy life before getting in a relation ship again for awhile

Treat this situation as though it was just another ex girlfriend, try not to think of it as a marriage, it was short lived anyway. I know it was real and special for you, however she seemed to take it differently. If she was in this for the long hall, she could have worked at it with you.Your broken now, your depression is expected as you had to deal with a break up whilst you were still in honeymoon mode. That is hard for any human to comprehend.Your wondering, how does she get on with it whilst your suffering?Well, it seems she was the one to break it off, therefore she was already emotionally detached and separated from you before she told you. In this case, you are in shock whilst she has already recovered and gone through the healing process before you were even made aware of it.I hope I made sense. Give it time, you too will heal, thankfully you didn't have children, it would have been allot harder for you to see them. Get onto chat sites where you can talk to people with similar experiences and try to get out of the house, even if its for a jog, walk or bike ride.Meet up with friends to socialize and don't feel embarrassed or ashamed in front of anyone, these things happen all the time, your not the first nor the last to experience this. keep your chin up.

Consider yourself lucky.The way you'll snap out of it... many ways. First of all a healthy diet, then start exercising, then call up your old buddies and get together (DO NOT TALK ABOUT YOUR DIVORCE OR SPLIT UP) for fun time. Find a job, start working. Etc.What you're going through is normal, and depending on background, some men experience it more acutely than others.Diet can also be a factor in the level of depression you experience (read up on serotonin and depression).Start doing things, you'll meet up women, that'll help you find out that there are normal women out there (not all but hey, no one is perfect), and you'll quickly forget about your ex.So, just live your life.